Do you ever wake up in the morning and wish you could just forget about someone? Like completely just erase them from your mind.. or at least the feelings that are associated with that person.

Why is it so difficult. Why is it so painful. Once I start picturing someone in my mind, my heart just swells up and sinks to the bottom of my stomach and big tears well up in my eyes.

Everyone keeps saying that time heals all wounds but that doesn't help me when it feel like the wound is still gaping open.

Sometimes I wonder to myself if Love is worth having after all.

Wouldn't it be better if we had a bunch of really great friends, but at the end of the day we could go back to our own homes and rely on nobody but ourselves?

Don't get me wrong, I love a good romantic comedy, but in all honesty, I don't think I believe in it anymore. I'm not trying to be callous or hard about things. I'm just trying to figure out why it hurts so bad and why it's even worth it anymore.

That's probably the saddest blog post you'll ever read.. maybe I'll delete it.. or maybe I'll leave it.

Don't worry.. I've still got my sparkle. Sometimes it just gets a little dusty and needs to be shined up a little.