Do you ever wake up in the morning and wish you could just forget about someone? Like completely just erase them from your mind.. or at least the feelings that are associated with that person.

Why is it so difficult. Why is it so painful. Once I start picturing someone in my mind, my heart just swells up and sinks to the bottom of my stomach and big tears well up in my eyes.

Everyone keeps saying that time heals all wounds but that doesn't help me when it feel like the wound is still gaping open.

Sometimes I wonder to myself if Love is worth having after all.

Wouldn't it be better if we had a bunch of really great friends, but at the end of the day we could go back to our own homes and rely on nobody but ourselves?

Don't get me wrong, I love a good romantic comedy, but in all honesty, I don't think I believe in it anymore. I'm not trying to be callous or hard about things. I'm just trying to figure out why it hurts so bad and why it's even worth it anymore.

That's probably the saddest blog post you'll ever read.. maybe I'll delete it.. or maybe I'll leave it.

Don't worry.. I've still got my sparkle. Sometimes it just gets a little dusty and needs to be shined up a little.



Here's a snapshot of my trip to Arizona to visit my Best Friend. 
I had such a great time… I was a cat for Halloween.  meow ;)

{ Laying by the pool in the sunshine is my kind of lifestyle }

{ Me and my Best at an Irish Pub called Murphy's Law… Their pretzel appetizers were to die! }

{ Sitting at my gate, waiting for my plane… I was so sad to leave this beautiful place. Thinking about coming back home to the rain and my job, I wasn't super stoked to say the least. }

{ On the plane! I LOVE window seats. Staring out the window at the tiny people and houses and cars below never ceases to make me smile. Every single time I fly, it makes me think of how small we really are and how big we make our problems when in reality the universe is so much more grand than we'll ever really know. Makes me think and daydream as I sit and stare out the window. }

{ Perfect ending to a perfect weekend. Spotted this cute little record player at Target and I couldn't resist… Then I found the coolest record store… which wasn't so cool because they were out of every single record I wanted :( I settled for this Matt Costa vinyl and it's not too bad. I've already listened to it about 50 times. }

Cheers to the end of another long week!